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Artist Highlight: fanclubwallet – Our Tradition


fanclubwallet is the mission of Ottawa-based singer-songwriter Hannah Decide, who first picked up the guitar and ukulele at school however didn’t think about changing into a musician till she went to college in Montreal. There, she began volunteering at a music venue and commenced making lo-fi digital music in her dorm room, gaining traction throughout the pandemic with the one ‘Automobile Crash in G Main’. Three days after releasing the monitor, nonetheless, Decide – who can be a visible artist – suffered a Crohn’s illness flare-up that left her bedridden in her childhood house for nearly a 12 months. She chronicled that have on her debut EP, Damage Is Boring, which she crafted between hospital visits with shut buddy and collaborator Michael Watson, who additionally helped produced her just-released debut full-length, You Have Acquired To Be Kidding Me.

When the 22-year-old began writing songs for the album two years in the past, she had simply gone by a break-up, dropped out of faculty, and moved again in together with her mother and father. Decide offers with these private experiences with an emotional directness that fits her introspective fashion of songwriting, however the document can be equal components idiosyncratic, blissful, and playfully self-aware, delivering uncooked confessions with a winking sense of humour: “I need to be/With somebody that hurts me/ So I’ll simply spend/ All of my time with myself,” she sings on ‘Gr8! Timing’. As a lot as she retains her songs understated, the manufacturing usually bursts with color, whereas her lyrics generally veer into summary poeticism. You possibly can solely develop when issues get exhausting, they counsel – and as aimless and excruciating as the method may really feel, the music of fanclubwallet is little question a vibrant place to be.

We caught up with Hannah Decide for this version of our Artist Highlight interview sequence to speak about her earliest musical recollections, the making of her debut album, and extra.


Are you proud of the response to the singles up to now?

Yeah, completely. I imply, I’ve learn some actually cool press stuff up to now, which is superior. I believe what makes me probably the most excited is that if my buddies prefer it, particularly my buddies that don’t normally take heed to the type of music I make. In the event that they’re like, “Oh, this one’s actually up my alley,” I’m like, “Wow, that’s so cool. You preferred it, and never simply because we’re buddies.”

Are you ready for everybody to listen to the album upon its launch or have you ever shared it with any of your folks?

Yeah, I’ve despatched it to a few buddies. I’m so bizarre with that, I’ll ship it to individuals after which I’ll be like, “They most likely by no means listened to it.” And that’s okay. I’m like, “They most likely hate me, but it surely’s effective.” [laughs] After which, my buddy the opposite day was like, “I take heed to your album on a regular basis.” I used to be like, “Oh, that’s superior.” However usually I’m type of ready on everybody else to listen to it. I’ve solely despatched it to love two individuals.

Would that be people who find themselves additionally in music?

I ship it to my outdated band, normally. The primary band I used to be in, Gullet. They’re like my finest buddies, so I belief their opinion. I’ll at all times ship it to my buddy from that band, too, as a result of she’s additionally making music and I belief her opinion with my life.

How do you look again on that point while you first began enjoying music with them? Does it make you’re feeling nostalgic?

Yeah, undoubtedly. I believe we’re all type of nostalgic about it. We’re engaged on like one final track ever, one final Gullet track. Nevertheless it was like my first time enjoying music and writing music with different individuals, and there was actually no stress. I really feel like I wasn’t anxious in any respect about, like, if my songwriting was dangerous or something. I really feel like I type of knew a few of it was type of dangerous, however I used to be like, it’s cool in any case. And it’s actually nice with the ability to write with buddies, too, to have a full band that you could bounce concepts off of. I undoubtedly miss doing that.

Do you thoughts sharing some early recollections that you’ve got of having fun with music?

I really feel like ever since I used to be tremendous younger, my favorite factor ever to do was to make individuals combine CDs. And I might do it for individuals I  barely knew – I bear in mind I made one for this lady in my math class simply because she took the identical bus as me. We had like two conversations ever. I requested her “What’s your favorite track?” and he or she advised me and I made her a CD primarily based off of that. After which we by no means talked once more. Not for any purpose, however I simply beloved giving like everybody I knew a CD. I simply at all times thought that was a very great point to do. I might generally make CDs, too, and I would go away them locations, go away a tracklist. I’d be like, “You discovered this CD. Make your individual combine CD and put it on this place.” It was very tacky. Typically I’d make artwork for the CDs, and nothing felt higher than displaying as much as faculty and my finest buddy being like, “Hey, I beloved the combination CD you made me. I made you one, right here you go.” After which I’d have to attend all day to get house and take heed to it.

For you, was it extra in regards to the connection and making an attempt to curate the combination relying on the particular person, or was it the problem of creating the artwork and selecting the songs primarily based on a single one?

I believe all of it’s nice, however I undoubtedly assume that music is such a tremendous approach for individuals to attach. You possibly can hear a track by an artist and relate to it a lot, however you’ve by no means met the artist. It was undoubtedly a great way for me to type of get out of my shell, too. I used to be type of shy, so I might be like, “Hey, I made you a mixture CD. Wish to be buddies with me?”

When you concentrate on your self as a youngster, do you’re feeling like there’s part of your self that has stayed kind of the identical? Or do you’re feeling like a very completely different particular person?

I believe numerous me has undoubtedly stayed the identical. [laughs] I’m enthusiastic about numerous the identical issues. I believe I attempt to honour the stuff that I used to be actually enthusiastic about doing and actually pleased with doing, nonetheless. I additionally make comics, and I discover after I’m drawing in my sketchbook – I used to be occupied with this the opposite day – it’s the identical type of stuff that will come out after I was drawing in highschool. I’m nonetheless being very angsty in my sketchbook and it’s type of good to be like, I’m simply this large little one. I’m only a grown-up child. However I believe youthful me could be tremendous stoked to see that I’m within the music scene and nonetheless actually enthusiastic about different individuals’s initiatives and serving to out everybody and making an attempt to get the music scene to attach. That’s actually necessary to me, and it was undoubtedly necessary to me as a youngster.

Do you assume it’s an identical factor with the music you make now, or is there a much bigger distinction in comparison with your comics?

Once I was youthful, I wasn’t actually writing something that had lyrics. I used to make bizarre ambient digital music. It was not superb. However I believe the vibe nonetheless comes by a few occasions on the album. We even have an ambient monitor. Making that was type of cool as a result of I used to be like, that is type of stuff that I used to make in highschool. So undoubtedly a number of the extra instrumental parts replicate stuff that I made after I was youthful.

While you shaped this mission and began writing by yourself extra, was there one thing that you just found about songwriting that hadn’t essentially been an necessary a part of the method for you earlier than?

I was actually anxious about writing track lyrics. I assumed you needed to be like actually easy in music, and I type of realized now that you just don’t must be. Once I make comics, they’re additionally a bit of bit imprecise as effectively. And I used to be like, I can simply additionally do that in songwriting. Or I will be humorous in a track, which is one thing I didn’t take into consideration earlier than.

I believe the album continues to be type of direct and easy in a approach, however there’s additionally that humour and a few extra summary moments.

I undoubtedly assume there are some songs which are a bit of extra easy than others. After which there are some that I don’t even know what I’m speaking about.

Do you might have one in thoughts? I used to be occupied with ‘Toasted’.

I do know what ‘Toasted’ means, however on ‘Fell By way of’, that one is tremendous imprecise. Who is aware of what I used to be pondering.

On the opening monitor, ‘Stable Floor’, you sing, “Typically the music’s completely different while you take heed to it in your outdated bed room.” Do you ever try this along with your outdated music?

Yeah, generally I’ll take heed to outdated stuff. I can’t truly take heed to any of my music in my outdated highschool bed room as a result of we don’t dwell there anymore. Which is unhappy, I want I did. However I believe I wrote that after I had been staying at completely different locations. I used to be dwelling with a buddy and I used to be in Montreal, and I used to be type of in every single place. I believe I used to be in mattress after I wrote that at my mother’s place. And I used to be simply occupied with the way it feels good to be at house, in a well-recognized place.

I believe the thought of house and even the phrase “home” comes up fairly a bit in your music.

For lots of the songs too, I used to be caught at house for therefore lengthy, so many individuals have been throughout the pandemic. However being caught in my bed room and being sick, you’re simply pondering rather a lot in regards to the room you’re in and the house that you just’re in. I at all times inform folks that my songs are both a few private expertise I’ve had with another person or they’re identical to a few home or a spot that I’ve lived. I at all times discover myself writing bizarre love songs about completely different homes I’ve lived in.

While you began engaged on the album, was it extra that you just felt prepared for a much bigger mission, or was it a matter of being caught at house and having extra time?

That’s a superb query. I used to be simply writing songs, it was simply occurring. I believe I wrote about 5 or 6 songs earlier than I used to be like, “Oh, this seems like an album. We should always make the album now.” I went again to Montreal for the summer time final summer time and wrote ‘That I Gained’t Do’ there. And I believe as quickly as ‘That I Gained’t Do’ was performed, I used to be like, “I’m prepared. That is the vibe for me.”

You talked about a number of the issues that have been rattling round in your thoughts on the time, like locations you’re in and relationships with different individuals. Had been you stunned by any of the emotions that got here up throughout the course of?

Yeah, I used to be stunned to search out that I used to be tackling my relationship with myself rather a lot. Much more than I assumed I used to be going to be. After placing myself on the market for the primary time in over a 12 months, simply being like, How do I appear to different individuals? How do I deal with individuals? How do I deal with myself? Do I like myself? Who am I? Simply asking myself numerous questions, having numerous self-doubt.

Apart from music and visible artwork, do you’re feeling such as you want one other outlet, like journaling or writing, to course of these emotions or discover these questions?

I believe it principally goes to music and artwork. I’d prefer to be the type of person who journals and I did a bit of bit this 12 months, however I’m fairly rubbish at doing that stuff. I have a tendency to love begin that after which I’m like, I don’t know. [laughs] I can’t begin any new hobbies or something. My consideration span will not be good.

You talked about ‘That I Gained’t Do’, and I needed to ask you in regards to the vocal results and manufacturing within the refrain of that track. Is there a narrative behind it?

I used to be listening to the track ‘Hang-out Me’ by Teen Suicide. I beloved that track in highschool and I had simply remembered that it existed and I listened to that entire album. I used to be, like, down dangerous, and so I used to be simply listening to that time and again. And I used to be like, “I need to make a track that seems like this.” Like, “I really feel like this track feels proper now, so I need to attempt to make one thing like that.” That track was made tremendous , too. I believe it got here out in like sooner or later.

You recorded the album at Port William Sound in Ontario. How did being in a distant house have an effect on the way you went about monitoring and refining the songs? Did being there make you see them in a brand new mild?

I believe that recording at Port William was probably the most optimistic a part of the entire album journey. I used to be depressed for like the primary half of creating it, after which as soon as we obtained Port William Sound, I felt very solidified that like, Whoa, I made this album, and this place we’re at is gorgeous, and I really feel like I can return and monitor issues on the songs and edit them. And perhaps simply add extra optimistic parts that I wouldn’t have considered earlier than. We didn’t do numerous new stuff there, however the title monitor for the album was made there. And that felt like actually cathartic. It was like, “Okay, I’m performed with this sense. That is the final track for this album, it’s the title monitor.” And I obtained all my buddies to name and go away me voicemails for the tip of that track. And that simply felt very nice, to have group on this track. Like, “Okay, it’s performed.”

It’s humorous that you just say that, as a result of I used to be questioning if a number of the extra relaxed or upbeat qualities of the album took form throughout that point, even when it’s not a really particular factor that you could level to. I learn that you just’ve recognized your collaborator, Michael Watson, since third grade. How has your relationship developed, particularly previously few years of working collectively by the pandemic? Do you’re feeling prefer it’s modified in any respect?

That’s a superb query. I take into consideration the primary track we made collectively versus the newest track we made collectively, and I believe numerous the adjustments come from myself and my confidence and understanding what I need to do. In the beginning, I believe it was numerous me being like, “Right here’s a track. It’s simply  guitar and vocals now, you do no matter you assume is nice with it.” And now it’s numerous me being type of bossy. I by no means have something however optimistic issues to say about working with Michael. They simply make it really easy, to the purpose the place I really feel like I don’t even want to consider it. It’s like, we sit down and we make a track. I assume I don’t do numerous occupied with how issues have modified as a result of it simply feels tremendous pure.

Perhaps that’s one other factor that makes the album sound extra comforting, along with the bodily house that you just have been in.

We’re like connected on the hip. I see them like each single day.

May you speak in regards to the story behind the album cowl?

Yeah, my buddy Meredith Smallwood made it. I truly went to highschool with them. Meredith was in grade 12 after I was in grade 9. I simply bear in mind being in highschool and being like, “Wow, their artwork is superb.” I used to be tremendous obsessive about it. After which when it got here time to get album paintings made, one of many first issues I considered was, I wager Meredith would make the best factor ever. We went to the identical faculty, our artwork had related sufficient vibes that it might undoubtedly work very well with the mission. I didn’t actually have a lot of an concept for what I needed, I type of simply gave them the album title. And so they instantly simply completely knocked it out of the park. I didn’t even must do any backwards and forwards. What they despatched me, instantly I used to be like, “That is good.”

You have been speaking earlier than about how the best way your collaborative relationship has modified is extra about the way you your self have modified. While you look again on the making of the album, what’s one thing you’re pleased with your self for reaching?

I believe I’m pleased with myself for pulling myself out of that ridiculously dangerous melancholy spiral that I used to be in. I believe I’m simply actually proud that I used to be capable of finish the album on a optimistic notice and make one thing that I’m proud of. I’m proud that I used to be capable of make one thing that felt actually true to myself.


This interview has been edited and condensed for readability and size.

fanclubwallet’s You Have Acquired To Be Kidding Me is out now through AWAL.

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